BECAUSE I LOVE MY PEOPLE... Says Uni Q. Mical , Tuesday, November 4, 2008 at 5:42 PM, in

...BUT I HATE THEIR BULLSHIT.

Walls of K.O.S.

(dedicated to my ppl who can't see above the concrete)

MY PEOPLE...HOLD ON.

MY PEOPLE...HOLD ON.

MY PEOPLE...

hold themselves in the highest esteem

address ourselves as 

brothas, 

sistas,

kings

and flyest of queens

MY PEOPLE

glow in summertime

glimmer with july in steam

wear earth tone colors

to blend this brown to blue and green

MY PEOPLE

advance in self

talking knowledge and wisdom

tellin others

we don't know we've been robbed of religion

taken from the slave ship

now camouflaged as a prison

conforming to the capitalist world that we live in

MY PEOPLE

wear hair natural, locs afros & twists

keep hair styled in love & a passionate bliss

never succumbing 2 white ideals of beauty--

but embracing AFRIKANNESS

MY PEOPLE.

somewhere within this knowledge of self

lays a fear of acknowledging anything else

my people say we're children of God

the stars that twinkle on the earth

the sun and moon as man and woman

who were created to give birth

BUT HOLD IT 

first thing u meet me

what's the greeting u say?

Peace, my sista

and i feel the love, it never hurts to spray

tho i know it's too early for me to burst in with 

GAY

for fears that you, MY PEOPLE,

will be lurking away

AND I'D

like to thank you for assuming that i'm straight.

no way for u to identify,

no rainbows bloomin from my face

but what i love to tolerate

is how we're so fluid with the race

until it comes down to sexuality

then u're spewin us with mace

and...

what's your argument again?

oh, riiight, it's just unsuitable to place

2 penises & 2 vaginas together,

so disillusioned, a DISGRACE

talking--

so boldly without knowing a different view is in the place

but the moment i say 

I'M GAY

u look confused at what to say.

so what is your fear, i ask?

let's open the floor for challengers!

and excuse me if i'm being presumptuous

or somebody's perspective gets silenced but

BROTHAS,

are u scared to have a gay friend

for fears u might be down with it?

i had no IDEA it rubbed off so easy,

that u hadda pin ur sexuality to the ground and if

ur defense

is there should be man, woman, and child in this

i can respect that

but what's really keeping u from coming across that

to dialogue in this?

and SISTAS,

why are u sitting so uncomfortable?

the last thing on my mind right now

is going down on u.

i'm not a recruiter,

no, not after ANY ounce of u

so why can't we just chill

without u thinkin that i'm after u???

tryna make me attractive to men--

squeezin me in dresses/perfume/& high heel shoes

to attract those that i don't desire

REMINDER:

THIS IS NOT SOMETHING THAT I CHOOSE.

what y'all can't seem to understand

the reason we're not coming out is...YOU.

for fear of ur insecurities,

for fear of what u'll do

for ur lack of understanding

bein trapped inside this booth

that how i'm living is unrighteous

disguising ur hatred as truth

but NONE of u know just what the God in the sky can do.

saying God only created us just for us to produce

is one of the most tired, tasteless of excuses

y'all are limiting God's outlook

cuz ain't we all created in this image?

are you truly analyzing what u believe in,

or are you a slave to your religion?

come on y'all, aint we all been mouthin off that it's time for us to uplift?

for every person i graze

we're all blessed with the gift

to bring us closer together

instead of focusin on these rifts

that push us further apart

when u see whose hips i'm holdin with my wrists.

and allow me to evoke the spirit

of MLK and the list

of black activists

who brought into change what they spit

and the countless others behind the scenes

who were gay and were hidden

i guess our commitment to the movement

aint valued the same...

if we're DIFFERENT.

but

who are YOU to decide what i do with this body???

y'all soundin like white supremacists

blockin them water fountains

blockin abortion lobbies

blockin them corporate dollars

let the topic of gays come up

errrybody resort to SILENCE.

dig deep into ur knowledge of self

and u'll discover a lotta walls

lotta fears layin undiscussed 

topics we keep hushed

as our culture falls

and this ignorance is accepted as our culture,

things we just all agree upon

some say if u're gay then that's a white thing

...last i checked, i was brought over here wit y'all.

and what does it benefit us to HUSH

when there's a boy who enjoys to call

women bitches in every sentence

to hide how he watches gay porn and gets off?

as more girls hide their tears behind drunk nites

cuz they couldn't afford to fall

as more rainbow children razor wrists in basements...

FOR LACK OF SUPPORT FROM Y'ALL.

and YES.

they are getting younger and younger

regardless of whether u hear our cries,

we gon' roll our thunder

take this info

twist it in ur locs, afros and sundress

steada shoutin 

ONE LOVE

we really needa be shoutin 

ONE LESS

cuz we lead each other astray

when we can't move past these dumb threats

boxing our ppl together as ONE--

well i'm suffocating faking "straight" in this one chest

HOW THE HELL CAN WE MOVE FORWARD TO FREEDOM

WHEN YOU CANT EVEN RESPECT THIS ONE YET?

MY PEOPLE...HOLD ON.

MY PEOPLE...HOLD ON.

SHOUT OUT TO THE SLAVE MASTERS! Says Uni Q. Mical , Monday, November 3, 2008 at 1:41 PM, in Labels: africa, lost, slave master, slavery, soulja boy

See I can't even be mad at this lil' boy anymore.

People tend to blame Soujla Boy for the death of hip-hop, the coon-itis that has taken the radio by storm. But when I hear shit coming from his mouth like "shout out to the slave masters. Without them, we'd still be in Africa. We wouldn't be here to get this ice and tattoos," I recognize this is an epidemic that's larger than Soulja Boy. 

Obviously for centuries our history has been systematically erased from our minds. ANY replica of Africa in our veins has been coughed out, white washed, bleached, and assimilated into this terrorist American land we now call home. Little boys and girls in the hood don't call each other kings and queens, not Nefertiti and King Tut, naw, but AFRICAN BOOTYSCRATCHER, MIDNIGHT, CRISPY, BUTTNEKKID...none of which are positive representations. Why? Because all we're bombarded with is Christian Children's Fund, flies hanging on the face, emaciated, AIDS wreaking havoc...our public school education does not give us the foundation of our homeland, but of THIS homeland, and omits the massacre that it took to even create this land. INCLUDING SLAVERY. The 3/5's. The not being considered human, maybe? Ah, white American romanticism.

And even slavery is a joke now, to black youth. I think imma start screening The Birth of a Nation and Bamboozled in Pre-K to make our history a reality, because mental slavery, such as what comes out of Soulja Boy's mouth, shows the bondage we REALLY are still in. Not to mention the noose around his neck of a record label that wants him to keep pumpin out the coon ass shit...talk about a shout out to massa. 

IF WE KNEW OUR HISTORY, WE'D KNOW WE ARE OPPRESSED.

The precise way to make us submit was to demean where we're from. And force us to demean it too. Score 1 for Whitey...again.

Truth be told, nobody in the hood wants to go back to Africa. Ask anybody, they'll tell you, "Hell NAW I aint African! I was born in (insert city here)." But honestly, how can we ever love ourselves...if we hate our origins. And yes, we were born on American soil, but our history begins BEFORE slavery existed. But of course, the way to maintain power is to force us to forget.

WE GOTTA GET BACK, Y'ALL, CUZ WE'RE LOOKING LIKE SOME GOT DAMN FOOLS. 

Study Links Teen Pregnancy To Sexy TV Shows Says Uni Q. Mical , at 1:09 PM, in Labels: black, juno, pregnancy, teen, tila tequila, tv, white people, youth of color

...Now who's dumb enough to ACTUALLY believe this shit???

Ever since the Juno blowup, Bristol an' dem, white folk just gotsta wrap their heads around why teen pregnancy rates in the US are still sky high...Reuters' author Andrew Stern got the answer:

"Exposure to some forms of entertainment is a corrupting influence on children, leading teens who watch sexy programs into early pregnancies and children who play violent video games to adopt aggressive behavior, researchers said on Monday.

In findings that covered 718 teenagers, there were 91 pregnancies. The top 10th of adolescents who watched the most sexy programing were at double the risk of becoming pregnant or causing a pregnancy compared to the 10th who watched the fewest such programs, according to the study published in the journal Pediatrics.

"Television is just one part of a teenager's media diet that helps to influence their behavior. We should also look at the roles that magazines, the Internet and music play in teens' reproductive health," Chandra said, acknowledging still other factors can influence teen sex habits.

Living in a two-parent family reduced the chances of a teen getting pregnant or causing a pregnancy. Black teenagers, and those with discipline problems, had higher risks."

REALLY????

Okay, y'all made me have 2 get academically angry black woman on this one:

It must be noted that this article is, by no means, a comprehensive explanation of the multitude of reasons behind teen pregnancy, mostly including environment, race, class, household, etc. Even these reasons must be analyzed, as blindly stating that "black teenagers and teenagers with disciplinary problems are at higher risk", as the author Andrew Stern mentions, is highly problematic. This does not explore the dire dynamics of systematic racism, poverty, and neglect that youth of color experience in these environments.

Moreover, the patriarchial gendered dynamics in these communities often force young women to believe, consciously or unconsciously, that men have the power. The lack of comprehensive sexual education in many public schools in youth of color communities, as well as sexual taboos and silence surrounding sexual activity, also contribute to the curiosity and experimentation.

So, whereas white teenagers can seemingly be harmfully influenced by television and movies to guide their sexual behavior, youth of color are scapegoated as hypersexual since birth, and this behavior is expected of them, and not seen as threatening or surprising. Nevertheless, a thorough discussion of this topic, beyond the sensationalism of television, must be had in order to understand why teenage pregnancy continues to persist in the US.

Once again, our bodies on the line, the actions that are expected of us.

So while little Sally Walker in Missouri can watch Tila Tequila and trip, fall and land on Johnny's dick, the rest of us have been rubbin on our tiddies since birth. Right?

EATING THE OTHER. Says Uni Q. Mical , Wednesday, October 29, 2008 at 12:17 PM, in Labels: beauty, black, consumption, dark meat, eating, other, woman

i went to NY this past weekend to perform at Columbia w/ my homegirl for the Latino Heritage Showcase. The topic? Color complexes. While there, it seemed EVERY public interaction gave us the reassurance that our poem was NOT in vain. i had the rude re-awakening that it's sooo hard trying to talk to white boys abt their privilege when i'm filled with so much RAGE from listening to their generalizations (those african-americans and spanish people with their 8 kids and child support)...AND dealing with being daily exotified and consumed and fetishized (hey, i LOVE dark meat!)...

WHAT'S A BLACK WOMYN TO DO????

respond with the poison. the word. 

so, here it is. one of many....eating the other. for all my survivors, my strong ones, my quiet ones, my loud ones. just living is a blessing...and a burden.

*this isnt the poem we performed, just a spark of inspiration sittin in class. more on the other piece later. 

and i’m

f  u  r  t  h  e  s  t

from your white conceptions of beauty.

 

lips been puffy since birth

to bite fruits is a blessing

the juices

keep them softened and blooming

like some tulips on Juneteenth

but don’t see me as all sweet,

cuz my expressions will school thee

jumpin off the tongue

same force as an army gun

warrior in the flesh

the casualties are historical rumps

shaking and baking

swaying hypnotic

rulers and rapings

repulsive and desired, such a brutal embracing

 

BUT I AM NOT YOUR PLAYTHING.

 

beautiful and on toppa my

natural clouds on my head got me on a knotty high

and don’t need you to validate it

not the fruit in your exotic pie

can't eat me 2 release me

cuz while the master’s sleeping

my sharpened knives are screeching

machete’d my way 2 freedom

YOUR WORST FEAR—

a chocolate womyn and her poison thoughts

independent of the gimmicks

from a system that wants me

auctioned off

unless i’m working within it

making you money while my top is off

the camera rolls

at how she flows

but that black bitch betta not ever talk

but even with that

my words scream louder than sapphire

fuckin ya flawed ideals like jezebel

telling mammy to retire

on a daily got me wired

like the streets of my city rollin

B-more in my blood, Afrika in my aorta

sick of adherin to what you told me

cuz you’re the reason i felt lonely

dark skinned & depressed

fit tighter than skin & bones

but i’ve grown 2 believe

that your history does not own me.

i’m uplifting so this brown

can drift like continents around the globe

WE

send the new memo of who we are

eres bella mama,

the stars

shine brighter on our skin

shout it until your throat is parched

give a big FUCK YOU to whoever denies our power

our past has shaped these bodies

but we must define us today for our tomorrow.

Americans Worried About State of the Nation? Never Thought I'd See The Day. Says Uni Q. Mical , Wednesday, October 22, 2008 at 12:09 PM, in Labels: america, stress, wake up call, worry

So according to CNN, 75% of the nation is "angry, scared, and stressed out" at the way things are going, the way things have been, the way the future looks.

Y'all just catchin on???

Hmm...what was the wake up call?...oh, losing a house, maybe a job or two, college tuition payments, the war...? Institutionalized racism, incarceration, fucked up schools, police brutality, sexual violence, cutting welfare checks, garnishing paychecks...I mean, these are things some of us just live with on a daily. But the rude awakening for others...better late than never I guess. Finally woke up and got that cold out of our eyes that the TV kept in place.

And I can't help but wonder...WHAT THE FUCK IS THE OTHER 25% THINKING???

Ohhhh, they're the ruling class. They're the ones that put us in this shit. Still sittin back in the cut while we melt under their feet. 

Waitin on November 4th, y'all, just waiting.

In the meantime, let's swallow the harsh reality. Tell 'em what's good, Nas.

THE BITCH KNEW THAT I'D BE BACK... Says Uni Q. Mical , Tuesday, October 21, 2008 at 3:06 PM, in Labels: miss honey, moi rene

Possibly one of the funniest things I've seen since OHIO STAAAATE !!! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BzzrPC-3xPM) 

Me and my peoples played it OUT in three days it was so hilarious. See the original video, and the parody we did below.

Wherever you are, Moi Rene, I bow down. You're amazing. And the brothas in the back too. Lmao eternally.

And I hope we did it justice:

So...I Voted. But Are Really We In The Building? Says Uni Q. Mical , at 2:45 PM, in Labels: colorblind, obama, racism, white people

After having my absentee ballot chillin' at the bottom of my bookbag for 5 days or so, I couldn't get any inspiration to actually fill out the little ovals in pencil. Until I'm in the school store with my homegirl, and we see Obama on the cover of Vibe magazine...he actually wrote a personal letter to the readers, telling us that it's NECESSARY now, more than ever, to vote. He understands our cynicism, but that shouldn't be the excuse we give for why we didn't put our two cents in. 

Of course, in a perfect democracy, this would all make sense. I can't help but go conspiracy crazy once November 4th gets here, and Palin rifles her way to the White House. Neverthless, I jetted to the mailroom and filled out every.last.oval (for Baltimore City, they want us to vote for 5011 different things--namely a $40,000,000 loan to the school system). I guess you can say I felt accomplished.

But in all reality, I haven't been pleased in listening to Obama lately. His war-hungry rhetoric is obviously him saving his ass from being called a Muslim, and his "save the middle class" just seems far too safe for me to relate to. It almost feels like he's not even speaking to us (yeah, US) at all anymore, but trynna walk this tightrope for Joe 6-pack and them middle america white muthafuckas who wouldn't think twice about voting for him. Grant it, he can't be a Jesse Jackson and solely discuss the needs of people of color, but he could AT LEAST mention us. But no, any specifics would deem him playing 'the race card', and would ACTUALLY admit to the fact that wow, there IS racism in this country, and people of color ARE affected by it! 

I'm so sick of white folk i dont know what to do. 

And not just any white folk, no...the Six Flags America,  "I'm not racist, I have black friends" muthafuckas who cannot comprehend their own privilege, and see how racism not only marginalizes us, but elevates them, just by virtue of being white and in this country. I don't care if you, personally, haven't called anyone nigger in ur LIFE, but the system around you that you exist in has fucked us over since the ships. And that's just the gospel truth. So you could at least be aware of this, and of your own accountability in perpetuating this...your naivete and denial doesn't help either.

Okay, I said all that to say Obama's got a hell of a position. These folks are gonna be watchin him like a hawk. And is it wrong of me to think, that just because he gets in office, all of a sudden he's gonna REALLY start talking about our interests? Naw, cuz at any given moment, he has to remain colorblind. To be colorblind is to remain neutral on race and how it has EVERYTHING to do with our positions in this country, and to appease those white folks that think we're soooo over racism and can move on to more important things. Yes. We've definitely reached that promised land. 

Come November 4th, I'll be sittin by the TV with my bottle of Captain Morgan's and an icegrill. It's gonna be a long night.